I wish I had known this when Gregory was still alive. I could have understood better, part of what he was going through and maybe I could have helped. In looking back, I probably "helped" automatically but mindful help would have helped more.
Too late now, but I am crying and sorry anyway. I will probably learn and grieve until I die. I will try not to grieve too much if only because Gregory may be watching from the other side and I do not want him to feel badly (he is the one who taught me to make sure I add the "ly!"