Periodically I find myself revisiting the last months, weeks, days of Gregory's life. I find myself thinking about who he was at that point in the advancement of his Dementia/ Alzheimer's and even earlier during the 12 years we began to know with what we would be dealing.
I find myself wondering how much of Gregory was no longer the Gregory I knew but rather the diminished person he slowly became. This helps me process how our relationship changed, helps me feel less guilty even though I did so much so creatively for him, and helps me grieve. It confirms that he was fairly happy, content, felt safe, and enjoyed his new narrow environment and life.
The following "look" popped up on Facebook as a memory from one year ago so I thought it appropriate to post it again here. The entry is posted June 1, 2015. Gregory died four months later on October 4, 2015. The truth is that his Dementia/ Alzheimer's was very advanced but through it all, I persevered, he persevered, and our love triumphed!